Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Confusing myself.

Ink rips holes in my notebook
as thoughts scorch my mind.
Music is blasting through headphones.

I am afraid to turn it off,
because I will burn alive without it.
I let it consume me so I can breathe.

Depression comes easily when it is gone.
Slowly at first, and then like wildfire.
I cannot prevent it this time.

Despite the heat, my body is cold.
I feel empty, lost, confused.
I am frozen inside the flames.

My flesh blackens, and pain is my best friend
until I can't sense it anymore,
but by then, I am ashes.

The cold fire has eaten away at me,
I have failed to keep it at bay
It is self-inflicted, for I have paused the music.

Love,
Lizz

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